But I'll take what I want from your heart, and I'll keep it in a bag, in a box, put an X on the floor- gimme more.

My Chem Obsession. Sorry folks.
Anyways, I'm exceptionally bored and my wrists and hands ache from drawing and coloring and shading. I'm working on a background for a piece. Did I mention I have NEVER actually created a background? (Well, one that I put any effort into) I hate it doing backgrounds. So. Much.
More Artrage: my art teacher is horrible. Honestly. If everything isn't perfectly realistic, or is creative in any way... you're in trouble. All the class is  "draw this, and ONLY this"
I do understand the need to skill through instruction. But... Gah. It's going to be a long semester.
I haven't been online that much lately. I'm rather horrid at replying to things... I see the message there, then I start to procrastinate. It makes me feel bad when I don't reply. Am I allowed to give the "My life's been crazy", "School's been a pain", "Men are stupid"(this one generally applies to a lot of situations ) excuses?
Just to waste time before I head to sleep, I'm going to do a pointless tag! The ten random facts one, just to make things easy.

1.) I love the United States Military. But... Go Navy, Beat Army
2.) I am paranoid. Ridiculously so. I hate being in a position where someone can sneak up on me.
3.) I tend to think that everyone despises me.
4.) I am ridiculously clingy
5.) I'm not fully sure whether or not I like being cold.
6.) I (quite seriously) think there is something that is mentally wrong with me. Or maybe I'm naturally just a reject.
7.) Whenever I'm upset my right thumb decides it should try to calm me down by making that rubbing motion on my opposite hand, or a stuffed animal, a piece of cloth, my knee, etc.(~eager4damnation would know what I'm talking about... Whenever she's upset, I'll kindof... stroke(?) her back or play with her hair.) I know it sounds sortof.... awkward. But the slow, repetitive movement calms me down a lot.
8.) I'm not typically happy for more than 20 minutes. I need to be entertained constantly mentally or I think too much and then I start getting depressed and filled with self loathing. Teen Angst. Woo hoo.
9.) I really want to be really selfish and find someone who (for the first time in my life) give the majority of their attention to me. I don't necessarily think I'm an attention whore or anything. Just attention- deprived. But I'm starting to get that "pity me!" tone, which I'm sure none of you can stand.
10.) I can't stand bugs. I hate them. All of them. Yuck. I know they're necessary. But.. YUCK!!!